Tuesday, October 27, 2009

blind stab

SINCE WE HAVE NOW BEEN JUSTIFIED BY HIS BLOOD, HOW MUCH MORE SHALL WE BE SAVED FROM GOD'S WRATH THROUGH HIM. ROMANS 5:9

This is my blind stab verse for my blog today...

I like the way it reads in The Message version of the Bible. It says...Now that we are right with God by means of this sacrificial death, the consummate blood sacrifice, there is no longer a question of being at odds with God in any way. If when we are at our worst, we were put on friendly terms with God by the sacrificial death of his Son, now that we're at our best, just think of how our lives will expand and deepen by means of His resurrection life!

This is a hard verse for me to discuss.

I am hearing it say that because of the sacrificial death--we are saved from God's wrath. At our worst God saved us so of course He will save us when we are at our best. (Not sure if I am at my best--but I am working on it)

makes me think of this song it asks This is your life are you who you want to be? Whenever I hear it I am reminded of all the areas I want to improve.

I know I have much room for improvement but I am so much better then I used to be without God in my life. I need to remember that I have grown so much in the last few years of my life and since I have understood that I don't have to conquer this world alone.

I have been so blessed with amazing mentor-wise-friends-elders in my life. I totally prayed for them and God totally gave it to me and because of these ladies and God I am stronger, wiser and more ok in my own skin! Thank you Shellie, Pam, Lisa, Chela, Andria, Michele, Eileen. Thank you for always making time for me. Thank you for continuing to pour into me. Thank you for doing it without me even asking. Thank you for understanding my heart even when my words are all mixed up! Praise god for answered prayers!

ok---now I am gonna run and watch Dancing with the stars---is that bad??

goodnight!

Sunday, October 11, 2009

will you run the race or miss the race??

HEBREWS 12:1-- Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.

hi there--the warfare has been hard lately...changing seasons of my life leave me weary and vulnerable. I am constantly having to tell myself --I am good enough, I can do this, I am not a failure and similar things...I wish the devil would stop filling my head with doubt! I even see Dante getting attacked with doubt...I hate it!

Juliette was walking around the house today saying " Happy family--Happy Family--Happy family" Dante and I needed to hear these words--Praise God for her words...

Anyway back to Hebrews 12:1--why is it so hard to run the race?...all this junk slowing me down...doubt is only one thing even if I was able to conquer doubt then I have this annoying desire to eat my emotions rather then deal with them. Then there is the financial burden that weighs heavy on us/me. I suck at money! Then there is this nagging feeling of wanting to have a nice clean house. Then there is the TV. Then there is blah, blah, blah I could just go on and on! All these things keep me/us from running the race that God has marked out for me/us.

I just want to run it! I want to see my friends, family, strangers, everyone run it! Can you imagine how beautiful it would be if we would all just get all the junk out of the way and just run the race!


GOD IS SO AMAZING THAT HE PATIENTLY WAITS FOR US TO CLEAR THE JUNK--and some of us probably never do clear the junk and so we miss out on the race...but the even more beautiful thing is He loves us anyway...He loves us even though we might go through life and miss the race that he marked out for us...that is mind boggling!--and what if missing the race is running the race--ok now I getting to deep for my own good!!

PRAYER REQUEST--I have so many close friends and family that do not know the Lord. I pray that I can do my part for God to teach them(whether that means words, acts of service or whatever). I cannot continue to ignore the urgency of their salvation. I just ask that you pray that God can begin to open their hearts and that I can listen and know my part.

GOOD NIGHT FRIENDS! momma