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Hello Hello--It is late I just got my fix of reality TV and the Lakers and I can't sleep. Its times like these when the house is quiet and I can't sleep that I know I need to be in the word. Often when I KNOW I need to be in the word-- I avoid it! Why you ask well...I'm afraid!

YES I am afraid...I know I am broken and there is a lot to fix in me! I want God to fix me but at the same time it is just super scary.

I love my life, I am truly blessed in so many ways but I cannot ignore where I came from and how it continues to burden me...that sounds bad...maybe I shouldn't say burdens me but--how it shapes who I am.

I need a verse...See I am sending an angel ahead of you to guard you along the way and to bring you to the place I have prepared. Pay attention to him and listen to what he says. Do not rebel against him: he will not forgive your rebellion since my name is in him. If you listen carefully to what he says and do what I say, I will be an enemy to your enemies and I will oppose those who oppose you. EXODUS 23:20-22


I am reading the Bible chronologically I am in Exodus right now--reading about Moses. I am actually reading it out loud to Dante--which is really cool...he asks me questions and I try to answer them. It is bringing us closer(I think) Anyway Exodus is the second book in the Bible it is where you can find the ten commandments. What I am learning as I read 1) God gave some pretty thorough information to Moses regarding Laws and stuff--How certain crimes should be handled and stuff like that. 2) God keeps His promises! 3) God chooses people.--I am not sure what this means exactly

I had a rough day today--I am pretty worn out...everyone is better now but last 2 weeks everyone has been sick(except me) and I am the caretaker and that can be exhausting. Also we had Juliette's birthday party last weekend. It is my spirit that is tired...so I need to be in the word--GOD ALONE CAN REST MY SOUL!

I am all over the place...I am gonna get to bed now...

praying that Dante will have an increased desire to seek/understand the truth. I want a partner on this journey and I usually feel alone. Pray that I will know how to love my parents as I am challenged to understand my role in their spiritual and physical health. Pray that I will be a good leader and team builder--always chasing after Jesus!

I am so blessed and I love my life!

Peace out---

BROKEN, Forgiven--Heather