hi...I just screamed at my kids...I hate it when I do this! But I am sad to say it happens sometimes. There is no excuse it is wrong. But I am going to tell you about my morning...Juliette decided to wake up at 5:30am. I am ok with 630 but I do not like 530. It just isn't fair! So anyway so that Jovan and Dante could continue to sleep I shut her door and tried to sleep somemore while she did whatever she was doing. This is just a really annoying way to start the day!!! ALL AGREED!!

So then I finally got up at 7ish made my family breakfast. Went to the store real quick to pick up a few things. Came home and realized that there was spilt juice on the floor that I hadn't noticed before so ANTS everywhere. . .FUNTIMES---today is laundry day so that is what I was doing all morning...while the kids play and make messes:) Gave the kids and my brother and me an early lunch and figured Juliette would nap early today(usually naps 1-3) so at noon I tried to get her down. I really just needed to have a moment to be still with the Lord.(not possible when she is awake). I laid down with her hoping she would sleep and NOPE--she wants to play...So since I am having a couple friends over tonight. I figured I would make them both nap(jov doesn't nap these days) and so at 1pm we all laid down in the big bed together and it was one thing after another I want water, i want to watch tv, I want my blue hot wheel, I want a snack, at 130 I had had IT!!! I SCREAMED "I NEED A BREAK, GO TO SLEEP, I NEED A BREAK!!!"

My throat actually hurts now. Isn't that something to be proud of...


SORRY LORD, I should not treat my children this way. They are yours and I should be a better mom. Teach me Lord patience...teach me Lord to act as an adult in these moments and not as a psycho... more of you and less of me. . . I know you forgive me but I need to forgive myself. . .I am gonna go listen to some worship music and hopefully I will feel better!